I fell too far The word comes out She’s still in the hospital And I don’t know what to ask I felt my health Give way to a never ending hope You’ve shown You’ll cut through glass And I failed And I failed And I failed And I failed

Silence It’s out of my hands again Should’ve confessed When I had the chance What if? You’re just a figment of an accidental love What if? I forget and fill your space This world Makes your choices for you You’re born, and you live With the consequences Bubbles up to the surface Once in a while I feel Helpless Well I guess you get the feeling, too And you know I would never desert her But it takes too long admitting to myself This world Makes your choices for you You’re born, and you live With the consequences Divorced, divine Interference You’re born, and you live With the consequences

I bite my nails and I hate it so much I can’t quit and I haven’t tried yet It’s not an action, It’s the consequence of my actions Drifting off If I can’t explain myself What makes you think that I’ll be able to explain you I’ll try, I’ll try again and I’ll try a third time And I’ll fail a third time TV shows happy people Happy people do happy things Sad people do nothing I’m sad I do nothing I turned my role models into adults that act like kids For attention I’m not accepted by you You won’t gut me out By you You won’t gut me out Death is empty Life is empty The room is empty And I don’t think anyone notices but me Death is empty Life is empty The room is empty And I don’t think anyone notices but me I wake up with headaches And one time I freaked out because I thought it was tumors I’m a paranoid android and it’s off with my head I thought I was horny (But I’m scared of intimacy) But it turned out I was just bored so I didn’t really feel all that much Really I just felt wrong Well If I hate you Why do I care so much about what you do? I’ve got a bad case of focusing on flaws And I’m manic depressive Well you took on the town and the town cut you up and the town shut you up And now you just wave your arms All you do is drink all you do is smoke And then all you do is bitch and complain about how much you hate yourself Honey there’s a difference between self love and narcissism And that line is blurred the more you make us compare ourselves To you You won’t gut me out To you You won’t gut me out Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (Not a whole lot else you can do) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (Not a whole lot else you can do) (I’ll die with my conscience heavy.) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (Not a whole lot else you can do) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (Not a whole lot else you can do) (I’ll die with my conscience.) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (Not a whole lot else you can do) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I laugh myself) Things happened and I can’t take them back (I can’t do anything)

I don’t have shit to offer anymore I hit my peak before I left middle school I couldn’t fit in With the new kids I guess I grew up pretty easy if I Sit back and grapple with my upbringing for a minute or two She’s just another Thing to lose I got tired of being around obnoxious people Then I felt myself turn into an obnoxious person Don’t you know that I’ve been sick since last September? When I was 13 I went to sleep at 7:30 Now I stay up until tomorrow on my phone (And every time it calls it hurts a little bit more) Waiting for a call I’ve convinced myself will come I taught myself You hold it in You hold it in Got feelings? You hold it in You hold it in Don’t know where to begin? You hold it in You hold it in Are you holding in? You hold it in You hold it in

I hadn’t realized Until you left The door open Open up my eyes Perspective Introspective Spend weeks in bed Seal with medical tape Act like nothing’s changed Four lane Intersection I swear I haven’t I haven’t I swear I haven’t I haven’t Accepted this She’s gone away She’s not the same She’s gone away It’s not the same Coping well Or as well as she can Holding out Losing hope To see the man behind the curtains Alone It’s a dream It’s a drink It’s too much to process The tears don’t fall Because they don’t remember how Because it doesn’t seem worth it

I gave into myself Against my own will Against my fear, My pride, what little I have left Oh You hate it But you held my head above You’ll die before I ever get to Hold you Hold you Hold you Hold you I dreamt I had a gun And I used it on myself No I used it on the first sideways glance Passing out Give into your most primal instincts Oh You held me but it never was Enough Enough Enough Enough

It's been a while since I thought about you It's been so long since I had an excuse to

I can’t relax I guess I wouldn’t have expected it But you say that someone’s gotta get it over with I don’t want to work I don’t want to eat I want someone to complain to I want someone who will listen and try to help And then I’ll get upset that they try and understand It’s silly thinking, it’s silly thinking It matters that much Why relax? When I could come home to more stress? Even if I tried to raise my voice, the sound won't carry far enough I don’t believe in chance I missed you again There aren’t powers There’s just people There aren’t powers There’s just people There aren’t powers There’s just people And there’s assholes Like me

Taken never ago, You don’t have to know You don’t have to know Told her never ago You don’t have to know You don’t have to know I can’t accept this whole (We’ve had to fill this) Reality is (Selfish hole) Fragile I’m frail (You’re safe)